11.03.2007

So, the school year has started and the countdown begins. Nine more months to go.

I recently started a new project in village. i am teaching hygiene and health to primary school girls, ages 8-13. I just started and so far it's been good. I continue to have my girls club at the high school. We most recently talked about role models and the attitudes to adopt in order to succeed in school and beyond. I'll also continue with my women's savings-and-credit groups which i started last year and volunteer work at the local clinic.

as i've expressed in older blog entries, i see health issues as a huge obstacle for the development of the people in my village. i enjoy working with youth and, from my experiences in Peace Corps, have begun to believe that health is where i'd like to focus my energies. so, since educating and empowering youth is crucial to developing a healthy and productive society, i've decided to spend my last year in Peace Corps working with school-aged kids to help them develop better health practices. (Ok, let's not get too ambitious. just teach them about better health practices -developing them is another story)

so, this is a very mini-update. sorry, so short. love to all. send me your hugs, kisses and thoughts.


side note:
you all suck.

my inbox is empty.
my mailbox is empty.

granted, i haven't updated my blog since july, but i live in a mud brick hut.
you've all got 9 months to redeem yourselves.

Send me:
  • dried fruit (i love dried cherries!!)
  • chai tea mix/tea bags
  • chocolate syrup/hot choc mix (the cold season is coming and i WILL be shivering in 80 degree waether!)
  • ready to eat/heat-and-eat meals (like the Indian or Thai ones you find at the grocery store)
  • drink mixes - tang and country time lemonade are my faves!
  • books (especially on economics, public health and development, to help me frame the experiences i am living)
  • clif bars (nothing with peanuts or peanut butter, please! ewww....no!)
  • candy
  • photos
  • magazines
  • letters

really anything is wonderful. just to remind me that the outside world still exists and it loves me! merci beaucoup to ms. sullo and ms. fort for their recent postal love.

7.02.2007


in Kumasi, Ghana
probably offending the ancestors

6.15.2007

As I sit here, i am watching the most amazing rainstorm I have seen this season (granted, I live in the Sahel where it doesn't rain too often and also this rainy season just started... but...). the electricity has cut out a few times, yet still i press on to deliver my news to you. i just saw more sky-to-ground lightening than i have ever seen in my life! it's beautiful! I love rainstorms!

Last week, I had the chance to return to Ouahigouya, where I did my training a year ago, and help out with the training of the new Girls Education & Empowerment and Secondary Education volunteers who have recently arrived. I had the joy of returning to my host village of Komsilga for the community adoption ceremony of the newbies. It was almost overwhelming to realize how far I had gone in one year... that I have enough experience to train these new volunteers, to connect with them and provide support to both them and the training staff. Maybe I do know a thing or two about this vague, loosely-defined job of mine!

Standing in Komsilga, having gone there to escort the new trainees and finding myself welcomed by the women of the village as though i was their child, i realized that i had come full circle. in one year, i had gone so far and grown so much. my hand is so steady and sure now. i saw myself go full circle over the course of the past year. with my first step out of the van, i felt a sun set inside of me and heard the click of a circle being completed. the click of a seat belt is what it sounded like, just like security.

one of the staff facilitators joked that the village welcomed me back as though i was their princess. and indeed, i felt loved and treasured - by these people who don't know anything about how if i invested all the money in my bank account, it would be more than they'll ever see in their lives and could do so much for them; who know nothing about my life in the USA but accept me as who i am to them here. i felt so comfortable. i greeted everyone in Moore and Fulfulde. i went straight up to the chief and greeted him in Moore, completely at ease. i could understand most of, or at least the gist, of everything that was going on in Moore.

the little kids stood close to me, calling out my name as the trainee adoption ceremony went on. the girls that i cherished sheepishly made eye contact with me, but their modesty quickly dissolved as they reciprocated my smiles. i looked over at the elder men of the village and they nodded approvingly to me, as though i had come home. in some ways, part of me was home. i had done so much growing up in the short three months in this village. i can only imagine what it will be like in two years when i finish my service and have to leave my village up north. somehow, i feel like it just won't be the same...

in this village, i spent my infancy as a volunteer - stumbling over words, i wasn't yet able to speak; becoming re-socialized, learning how to be a part of this culture and looking for ways to belong. i regard my beginnings in my village of service more as an adolescence - difficult, lonely, feeling isolated and without the words to explain my growing pains. Seeking out allies to lean on and share with, whose company i could enjoy. having the words, but not yet anyone to express myself to. i look back at my infancy with nostalgia and am charmed by its simplicity, while my adolescent arrival to my village of service resounds with disorientation and uncertainty.

now, as i have reached the adulthood of my service, my hand is steady and, while my mind is sometimes troubled, i can see clearer. i have goals and means with which i can achieve them. i see choices ahead of me and boundaries that i am not afraid to defend. much like my real-life adulthood, i make my own choices and i relish the freedom to have the courage to take responsibility for them.

and as the sun sets, i look forward to tomorrow and everyday after...

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After working at the training of the new volunteers, I came back to Ouagadougou for a three-day training as a new member of the Peer Support Network (PSN). PSN is a volunteer-run peer-to-peer support network here in the Faso. We are available to volunteers who just need someone to talk with and topics can range from depression, sexuality (in a culture that is not open/accepting of different sexual orientations), homesickness...etc, whatever kinds of subjects that volunteers would like to discuss confidentially with a fellow volunteer are our domain. We are not professional support but can serve as a channel for PCVs who would like to seek professional help and also as a liaison for the administration and Peace Corps Medical Officers (PCMO - Peace Corps is full of acronyms; it's like a whole different language...).

Our group of 12 PSNs are really motivated and we have a great dynamic so far. We had so much fun during our training (well, as much as you while being trained over the course of three days...), we were laughing so much and joking- the atmosphere was really laid-back yet we were still able to be productive, which is great. I was elected as co-chair of the group and I'm also excited about that. p.s. my co-chair is the first person i've EVER met with the same bday as me, so we are a little Aquarian-Feb 9th powerhouse! :)

First of all, i am excited about PSN because i think it serves an extremely important function. our jobs are very hard, we are so isolated and independent in village and we need this kind of support and outlet. the only support we get of this nature is from other volunteers and it is great to have a volunteer group trained on addressing and dealing with volunteer mental health. how else can we be productive if we don't protect our sanity?

Also, being a part of PSN and being a co-chair gives me my productivity and structure fix. i have been so spoiled this month, starting with a one week-long training for the Pre-Service Training (PST), preparing me to train the new volunteers; then actually working at the PST, which is uber-structured and, finally, attending this training for PSN, i have been able to feel productive and organized with my time and energy. i must say, it has been a refreshing break - having direction, wow. such a rarity in my life here. (although, i do think that my second year of service will be better because i already have an idea of what sorts of activities i want to implement and how before the school year even starts. all the same, it's not like all this organization...)

recently, i've been kind of operating in fits and starts. i had bangs cut and then i cut off most of my hair. i had clothes made, much of new wardrobe was created. i been experiencing strange sleeping patterns: sometimes having spurts of energy at weird times of the day, like right now at 2:45am, and then, knocking out asleep for so long, you would've thought someone was paying me to sleep that much. i've been restless, neglecting my yoga, journaling and other centering activities, but, on the other hand, gaining the benefits of so much time spent socializing, exchanging and just relaxing with other volunteers. so, i've been feeling alittle lopsided-quoi, but it's been worth it to have this change of pace.

this summer is full of different and exciting experiences. though i am alittle nervous to be spending long periods of time away from my site (in terms of integration and continuity), i think i will go back with better focus and energy... with my one-year countdown to look forward to... and lament.




what's up
temp: in Ouaga, it's been unbearably hot until the rain falls and then the most amazing rain storms torment the earth
currently reading: The Middle Passage by VS Naipaul/ The Four Agreements by Don Miguel Ruiz
just finished: The Pilgrimage by Paulo Coehlo
current favorite song: Don't Cha by the Pussycat Dolls (it's my text message ringtone!)
last thing i ate: strawberry ice cream!
last thing i bought: cab ride home (60 cents)
recent butterfly: new haircut!
recent onion: loss of appetite :(
fave destressing activity: narcoleptic napping
unattainable craving: NYC
next lesson: just learned some new listening techniques for volunteer counseling which i am looking forward to practicing
next goal: get my pictures in order!
looking forward to: TOGO & GHANA (how many times can i mention those two country names before actually getting there?)
updated: 18 june 07

5.30.2007

Guess what! Guess who is only 4 days from her one-year anniversary in the fabulous Faso!

ME!

Your favorite Peace Corps volunteer!

Random finding:
My high school is listed on wikipedia.com. How crazy is that?

what's up
temp: in Ouaga, it's a cool 82F which feels so lovely
reading: The Audacity of Hope by Barack
just finished: The Pilgrimage by Paulo Coehlo
currently listening to: Flaming Lips
last thing i ate: leftovers from a pseudo-Lebanese place two nights ago
last thing i bought: bag of water
recent butterfly: new bangs (i traded my friend a popsicle for the haircut), support from friends and air conditioning for two weeks
recent onion: e. coli
fave destressing activity: napping on the roof at sunset under the guise of reading after a full, exhausting day of training
unattainable craving: got my eyebrows under control. right now, i'm not craving too much since today is my 9th day in the capital
next lesson: center yourself or just keeping spinning?
next goal: breathe
looking forward to: (1) Togo & Ghana at the end of this month, seeing a natural body of water for the first time in a year and being able to jump into it without the fear of schistosomiasis. (2) also, the satisfaction of having completed one year of this madness. yes.
updated: 30 may 07

5.24.2007

I know this is 9 months late but....

here are pictures from the first three months in Burkina, that horrid monster known as:
training!
you guys are mean.
no one leaves messages on my blog anymore :(

i will be in Ouaga until the end of next week because i am being trained to train the new trainees who will be arriving at the beginning of June. yeah!
(which means i can reply to emails without the month-long intervals or i can even maybe -gasp!- chat online!)

here is more information on a few of the words often used on my blog:
Mooré
Fulfulde (for the extra ambitious, here is a written sample of Fulfulde)
Sahel
Burkina Faso (two different links there, either for Burkina or Faso)

current president Blaise Compaoré
former Thomas Sankara, who was assasinated by Compaoré

4.29.2007



So, I have great news to report:
A few weeks ago, for the first time during the 8 months since I officially became a Peace Corps Volunteers and starting working in my village, I felt satisfied about something relating to my job. Go, me!

Go, me! Go, me! Go, me!



In school, the creativity and critical thinking skills of most students are either never cultivated or sucked dry because of the nature of the French school system which Burkina inherited. Class curriculum doesn't really resemble what I am accustomed to, especially, in correlation to age group. Everyone considers it nearly impossible to succeed in school and their ability to progress is dictated largely by their performance on national exams. (national exams, may i add, that ask really stupid and irrelevant questions.) Girls have little chance of continuing their studies to a very high level and have innumerable difficulties to face should they decide they might stand a chance.




Enter: Girls Club. I facilitate a Girls Club at the local secondary school for 8th and 9th grade girls, whose ages range from 14 to 18 (cuz that's how school works out here). The club is loosely focused on Health - that's the grand context I used to propose my idea to the School Director, but really, I'm just starting out small with them, working on self-esteem and assertiveness. Just little things, such as making girls speak up during meetings or asking them what they think - gasp!, make a big difference in how these young girls see them selves, their futures and their capabilities.

Chances are most of them won't make it through school. Most likely, they will fail, be married, get pregnant or just simply will be taken out of school for some other reason. However, I hope to help them develop the ideas about themselves that will help them be successful women no matter what they attempt in life. Simple ideas, like decision-making; speaking up for yourself; being aware of yourself, your thoughts and your feelings are the small steps that I am hoping to guide my girls through. next year, I'd like to incorporate more orthodox health topics, relating to body and hygiene and also collaborate with our local clinic to gain access to their support and resources.

yeah! Go, me!

Also, I've started review sessions for the sixth grade students because they take their first national exam in their potential educational careers to pass primary school. Right now, I am teaching math but hope to work on other subjects. I also hope to sneak in some health topics there, too, because healthy students have better chances at being successful students and healthy primary school drop-outs make better parents.

This is a good thing because since I started my job I have dealt with some very heavy tension between me and the primary school staff. Four of the six teachers are constantly not in school teaching because of health issues or something and there are not enough substitute teachers (besides the fact all the primary school teachers i know hate their job, so they'll find any excuse not to have to do it), so the students of the absentee teacher spend the day running around and come to school to get their free breakfast and lunch. Not the most productive use of time for little kids, huh?

So, since I am loosely attached to the school and have an extremely vague job, the school staff didn't understand why i wouldnt just take over a class. I was adamant about not teaching because (a) that's not my job and (b) i'm not qualified anyway and (c) really, it's sooo not my job! (also, i think the primary school atmosphere is a nightmare and would rather help the students from a distance. I have a severe dislike for my "colleagues" there, but that's a-whole-nother story. I would really resent it if I got saddled with someone's sucky job just because they didnt want to do theirs. Plus, it would take away from me doing my actual job because I would be busy at the primary school 6 days a week doing not-my-job.)

This way, I get to work with the kids, teach a bit at the school, run my classroom as I like because it's my regular class and help the kids learn something (maybe). I really try to be fair, encourage them to think and I definitely don't hit them or verbally abuse them, so that should be a nice change from some of the other teachers' classroom atmosphere.

for the record, one teacher really teaches well and i think part of the difference is that she genuinely wanted to be a teacher, but unfortunately, she's on maternity leave... her class is great! And to be fair, the classrooms are ridiculously overcrowded and teaching at our primary school is a very, very hard job. The first grade teacher works with 114 kids, none of whom speak French and she doesn't speak more than words of their mother tongue. Tel me that isn't discouraging? She spends most of her time disciplining, rather than educating. It's horrible and I've seen how she has gradually become more and more unmotivated and I empathize with her situation. But some of the teachers are consumed by the fact that their job is difficult and aren't actually interested in teaching, so ultimately, the children lose out, horribly and heart-breakingly.

Wait, this was a happy post. Let me see. ok, it still is because I am finally able to do something to combat all this mess and i get to do it on my own terms. So, I can feel like I am contributing something to these educational situation for the children.

Go, me! Go, me! Go, me!

I know my job is girls education and empowerment, but I see that school is just so difficult and life is so hard that i'm just doing my little part for empowerment - community empowerment -and, where and when i can, education. since getting to Gorgadji, i have been so much more interested in health because I feel that if you have control over your health, you have more control over your life. as the first GEE volunteer at my site, i see my job as simply introducing the idea of girls education and empowerment. there are so many things going against the success of girls and the community is so focused on just their mere survival that I feel as if I won't be able to make any grand strides for girls in Gorgadji during my two year service. that was actually a very relieving revelation for the overly-ambitious Jenni. you know, we are supposed to be doing grass-roots development, but this isn't even grass-roots, this is top-soil breaking! this is, trying to figure out where to even throw the seeds!

before my arrival in Burkina, I read something a volunteer wrote and I am going to paraphrase it horribly now. it was something like: you spend the first year trying to understand everything and the second year, you realize you have and it still doesn't make sense. so true! I have been happy in Gorgadji as a community since I got here and it is my connection and friendships with community members that has kept me here when times were tough, but my job is really difficult. I feel a lot more centered now in village because I've been putting less pressure on myself to get things done and have been focusing my energy more strategically. I guess i've had to do a bit of self-empowering before I could really start community empowering.

Speaking of helping others out... please please please send me dried fruit. ANY KIND. the dry season is awesome - as in, truly invokes awe, amazing to look at. but i miss rain and fruits. i don't know who can do anything about the rain, but if you can, hook a sistah up! i do know that anyone can help me with the lack of fruits. so please! :) this past friday, on my way south to Ouaga, I was transfixed (yes, even, enchanted) by the 5 or 6 patches of flowering trees that i saw. my mind was like "oh my lord, color!". the Earth is so hard, hot and dry right now. many of the barrages (sorry, i don't know what that word is in English) of water are all dried up in the North. the landscape is incredible to look at, but not so great on the fruit-providing front.

And one last time:
Go, me!


me and one of my closest friends, Sidonie, a nurse at the clinic in Gorgadji
what's up
temp
: 115 F, burning hot winds and dust
reading: The Audacity of Hope
still reading: A Continent for the Taking
just finished: the Alchemist (for about the 5th time this life)
current favorite song: Say It Right (Nelly Furtado)
last thing i ate: fish! (only available to me in Ouaga)
last thing i bought: fabric - little joys!
recent butterfly: my Girls Club for high school girls is fabulous!
recent onion: my stupid savings-and-credit groups are still only quasi-functional - grrr...
fave destressing activity: pelting rocks at lizards who are fleeing from the broiling sun
unattainable craving: still, eyebrow threading. i like it better when someone else is responsible for this
next lesson: pacing myself - one project at a time, one step at a time. baby steps
next goal: health work on malaria, before the rainy season hits; brainstorming ideas for the next year
looking forward to: tomorrow and everyday after
updated: 29 apr 07

4.28.2007

some pictures from my mom's trip in feb 07
(both from my village)




using the method that most women use to transport things here, this woman is probably carrying food or milk, maybe selling it




near the primary school in the village, this is a typical water pump scene. women and girls are responsible for going to local water sources and bringing back the family's daily water supply. (p.s., i have a really awesome Burkinabe skirt and top outfit made out of the same yellow butterfly fabric that the man on the bike is sporting. yeah for tailors!)

also, at the beginning of last month, i got to enjoy the West African film festival that comes to Ouagadougou every two years, Fespaco. Some of the movies were great. Others were not too bad. Watching English movies like Blood Diamond and The Last King of Scotland in French dubbing absolutely sucks and only affirms my deep and long-standing disgust for dubbed films. As usual, I wasn't too thrilled by the shorts that I saw.

My top two favorites were:
"Death of Two Sons": The Story of Amadou Diallo and Jesse Thyne Brown
this story was amazing - by far my favorite, especially since it hits home on two levels for me: NYC and Peace Corps. eerily coincidental - you would almost believe it was fiction, if you weren't already familiar with the Amadou Diallo story.
(an added bonus for me was that I could understand some of the Fulfulde that the Guinean characters spoke because their Fulfulde is related to our Burkinabe Fulfulde, but really, that's so irrelevant...)

500 Years Later

i genuinely wish that more people could see these two movies. Both presented the truth about painful histories through beautifully crafted story-telling, without forcing one opinion or point of view, while remaining truthful to the people whose stories were being told.
see these movies even if you don't know or care what they are about.



what's up?
temp: 115 F, burning hot winds and dust
currently reading: A Continent for the Taking
just finished reading: The Tipping Point
current favorite song: Share My World (Rhianna)
last thing i ate: mango!
last thing i bought: water, which comes in bags here - 10 cents
recent butterfly: went to a wedding with my closest Burkinabe friend in the Southern part of the country and had a ball!
recent onion: seeing the southern part of the country made me so sad to live in the desolate Sahel :( life could be so different, even in the same country!
fave destressing activity: listening to music! (thank you, Jakhi, for the CDs!)
unattainable craving: eyebrow threading would be lovely - though i'm doing a good job of maintaining
next lesson: patience and patience and still working on giving myself a break
next goal: doing some health work, focused on malaria, before the rainy season hits; getting my girls club started and preparing for summer school
looking forward to: get-togethers that are coming up for the volunteers who are about to finish their service and for the rest of us who just need a break
updated: apr 10 07

3.24.2007

hello and lots of love. happy spring to all you North Americans! this is just a quickie hello because I gotta run. Had a quarterly report to write (bah!) and photos to upload, so that ate up my computer time this month.


In front of my house with some neighbors
















Sidenotes:
my newest favorite word is: moxie

Happy Birthday to my Mom!




what's up
temp
: 100 F, sometimes windy & dusty
currently reading: A Continent for the Taking
just finished: The Language of Baklava
current favorite song: Warning Signs (Coldplay)
last thing i ate: yogurt
last thing i bought: yogurt, cost 40 cents
most recent onion: my women's savings-and-credit groups are still waiting for me to give them $1000 to start their group (yeah, right!)
most recent butterfly: getting the chance to practice my Arabic with venders in Dori
fave destressing activity: pedicure!
unattainable craving: electricity would be nice
next lesson: giving myself a break and some credit (dammit!)
next goal: high school girls club, study hall & primary school kids theatre group
looking forward to: i think i'm due for a vacation near a beautiful body of water, maybe in June

2.21.2007

waaay! february.


what a loco month and we're just making it to the end... is March really starting next week?


this year was off to a kick. i had a lovely New Year's, spent with my friends here, dancing our little, ex-pat hearts out on a rooftop in Ouaga, hoping not to hear gunshots from the unrest between the police and army. it's all settled down now, but we didn't know that then. we were put on alert and updated so many times, i felt like i was back in NYC with all the rainbow-bright terrorist alerts.


the harmattan winds and dust brought me back to Gorgadji in the company of a friend and his visiting family. it was interesting for me to see my village through the eyes of strangers, even just for an hour. tomorrow, my mom and i will be heading up north for her to get a glimpse of my life au village. my neighbors, with whom i share a courtyard, were so happy to meet my friend's family, i can only imagine the welcome they will shower upon my own mother. i'm really excited (and a little stressed, mais, on va voir...).


i had training coming up in february, so i knew that january would crawl, as i waited in anticipation to be back with the 15 other Girls' Education and Empowerment volunteers for the first time since our affectation to our sites. i finished up my observations of classes at the primary school and am almost done observing classes at the secondary school. i started two savings-and-credit groups with some of the village women, which entailed its own headaches, but that is a story that i will save for another post... can't wait to see how they have survived in my absence (or rather, if). for the first time, i accompanied one of the nurses from the local clinic as she went on her vaccination campaigns to neighboring villages. it was so interesting and tiring. we had a ball together and i learned a lot about the grassroots level of global public health. watching mothers and children get vaccinated against tetanus, hep C and several other illnesses en masse, under a tree in the middle of nowhere will definitely give you a new perspective on things.


then, training came in february and it was great to be around my fellow volunteers. if there's one thing that really sustains me throughout this Peace Corps experience, it's the energy i get from other volunteers. we came together for four days of training in the town of Ouahigouya, where we completed our first three months of pre-service training. it was nice to be back in a familiar place - better yet, to realize that i had been in the Faso long enough to return to some place - that is what was most remarkable.


then, there was my birthday, which i regard as almost a national holiday. my birthday makes me so happy and my friends here made it wonderful! it was the last day of training in Ouahigouya, so we headed to Ouagadougou as soon as our sessions were over. had seafood (seafoooood. yes, seafooood, in a land-locked country!!!) at this uber-fancy, shmancy resturant. really, it was lovely.




now, my mom is here and we are going to visit the north tomorrow. i am really excited for her to see where i live. i know this has all been a stretch for her already and i really appreciate her patience and support with everything. she doesn't speak a bit of French, pas un mot, so i can imagine how tiring things can be. i remember how disorienting and frustrating life was during training when i first got here, so i can sympathize with how she must be feeling.



but!, our trip au Sahel will be lovely. i am so happy to live in the north and i am looking forward to sharing that experience with her. i'll be coming back to Ouaga with her, so i'll be back soon for lengthier, juicier posts.





wend na kond nidaare!





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